Post-Shift Street Interviews 5
Basically, it’s like this: Instead of leaning away from your radically different new life, try to lean into it. Make up a persona and try to stick to it all day. Pick out a woman’s name and try it out in public, dress up in something overtly feminine that you never would have worn before, basically anything to break yourself out of the mold of your old self and get you to embrace your new future.
I mean, I was a middle aged white guy before all this and I ended up as an Indian woman half my age, it’s a lot to wrap your head around, being perceived so differently. I’ve been leaning into it more, which kinda felt like cosplay at the start but i dunno, I think it’s actually helping me separate the old me from the new me now. You know, going by Divya instead of Dan, wearing saris and kurtas around the house, watching Indian content instead of my usual tv… Plus all the feminine activities I started doing: Starting every day with hair and makeup even if i’m not going anywhere, throwing out all my old male clothes so all I have to wear is the clothes the woman I ended up as had left for me. The goal was to fully immerse myself in femininity so I had no excuses not to push forward. It felt really unsettling at first, especially when people started treating me like, well, the attractive young Indian woman I was forcing myself to present as, but something had to change - I was tired of lounging around the house all day in oversized T-shirts and not feeling like “me” every time I looked in the mirror.
And what can I say, I’ve really been loving the progress I’ve made so far! I started out acting the role, but the more i do it, the more it just feels… natural. Now I kinda look forward to going into the world as “Divya”. If there’s anyone reading this in a similar situation, all I can say is if you act like the woman you are now for long enough, soon enough you’ll start thinking like her too! Good luck!
Divya, formerly Dan (46)

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